🍄 @vivaizix@mastodon.art

re- #introduction since it's been awhile!

i'm vivaizix, or sarah. 🍄 i'm a 27 year old art student looking to study game design / new media. i make videogames, sculptures, illustrations (ink, paint, digital), comics, and i write.
mixed media is my jam. i talk a lot about my personal progress, and concepts in art and games.
you can check out my videogames on itchio: https://vivaizix.itch.io or http://vivaizix.tumblr.com/tagged/vivgames

there we go, that is my face. it's a nice face.
#pixelart

@vivaizix I'm actually going to edit that pic with my haircut that i really like since i found a good pic of it and this is a really good self portrait

making some basic graphics for my twitch since i'll be streaming more often soon

#pixelart

@vivaizix
Ryan first season: regular human being tell scary story
Ryan second season: grim mysterious narrator from old horror books
Ryan third season : what if a demon did a voice over? wouldn't that be fun?

unsolved: supernatural is cute, but Ryan's narration is getting more and more growly and low and it's becoming ridiculous

tired ootd

we got a w👁️de variety of peepers here

i am going to be able to try streaming again in a week or two when i fix my computer a lil bit!

i want to do some short indie games sometimes* - does anyone reading have anything they like or have made they've really wanted someone to play?

(*it's also gonna be a lot of overwatch and fortnite i'm ngl)

@vivaizix it just amazes me at what men who skate by in life get away with.

*this is mostly in reference to this maddening tweet thread: https://twitter.com/Gaohmee/status/1012286319395946497?s=09

i spent ten minutes researching the origins of the popularization of a slang phrase with likely no exact creator, in the off chance i'd put up a design i made with it -- and real paid writers are out here not crediting the people they quote in their own damn articles

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just applied for a very local prepress internship SO there's that!

i cannot help but want to call the characters of a lot of diary style / woman led internet shows 'my girl ____' because those shows always feel like a good friend retelling you some crazy shit from last year or something

It isn’t Ellia’s job to be friends with Jac or to forgive those ghosts. It is Casey who wanted to, who had the skills to, and it is Casey’s whos’ fate was to help people embrace their fear, guilt, pain, and to move on.

If the husband had been the killer, could he be forgiven? If this was American Horror Story, maybe. I think anyone can change, but forgiveness is a moral and personal question. This movie speaks to that. I understand how Ellia could never personally forgive the woman who murdered her mom. But that woman’s situation, and Casey’s view, is impressed upon the viewers: Emily was hurt, and didn’t know what to do.

The finale makes the importance of that moment even clearer. Ghost movies are filled with sad ghosts who move on, and people feel bad for the initial ghosts which died, but they get the fuck out of there. It’s a removed, meaningless sympathy. Casey cared. Casey cared about the ghosts, and she cared about hurting her friend which she used to love. But she again and again made the choice to be honest and upfront, and to deal with fallout and pain as maturely as she could.

Jac started out bitter and became worse because she was suffering and didn’t know how to deal with it. She became abusively dismissive of Casey’s hopes. She made it difficult for Ellia who, despite having a crush on Casey, who wasn’t even trying to flirt. Then she is honest. This moment is so painful and so appreciated and my heart broke for everyone involved.

When they reveal it was the wife who killed the mistress and husband, I again was a bit let down. I like watching women led media because it tries to avoid tropes like ‘vengeful woman’. And I gave it a chance on that as well.

The show was scary, and it is a horror genre, but the climax was not about that fear. The show makes it abundantly clear – the climax is about forgiveness, understanding, honesty. So the sudden uptick in Ghost Power Level was a little rough, but it was important in that it forced Jac to begin considering she may be wrong (about more than just the ghosts).

Despite my disappointment at this sudden yank away from the building terror, I kept watching. I was pleasantly scared a few more times, and the actual climax did give me some shivers. But that moment was when I lost my sense of true horror – and I’m glad for that.