Merry Yule, all who celebrate 24th! Personally eaten all the flod, gifts distributed and now the family is watching TV

I've dreamed my entire life to become a dad.
But I am the child of an adopted child - and the moral choice of adoptions is one I cannot do.
I am the son of a former prostitute and the buying and selling of surrogate mothers is one I cannot do.
I still grieve it all. I sometimes wish I could make these choices.
I see friends play with daughter and sons, whine about teen-kids and see a future that will always end with me dying alone and isolated.
Our grief is there no matter what.

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You don't know this but if you know a gay couple who's 40+ we have all had to made an active choice about kids.
Either to work, to swallow our ethics to become parents - or grief the fact that we cannot. Not for practical reasons, but moral ones.
We still yearn for parenthood. We had to make hard choices about it. We had to cry over the loss of the fact that the parenthood we dreamed of will never happen.
We grieved. And grieve still.

Ok I urge anyone interested in History to look up Onfim on Wikipedia.
A 6 or 7 year old boy who lived in todays Russian in the 13th century who left after him a comparatively large set of texts of him learning to write, but more importantly: drawings.

Knights in battle, his teacher, him as a wild monster - all done in what any modern human can recognize as a small childe's drawings.

Not just adorable but a lesson about the past and how its the same as the present

Husband dude wildly trying to balance the need for Swedish Language Café activities with the new vaccine requirements... which is tricky since many in that group aren't vaccinated - so now trying to find activities for 99 or less people.

As the library is one of the few sources of info the same group trust, the meetings also serve as a way to push for more to get vaccinated while at the same time figuring out how to handle the drop of language skills after restrictions.
TLDR Frustrated Husband

Horror Story, Suicide 

The story is based on a friend and her ex.
This was decades ago, but I remember when it happened, how many years of her life it wrecked. At the same time its not like he was a bad person, he was just depressed and suicidal. If it wasn't the break up it would have been any old reason.
He suffered from an illness, she was made to feel like she made it happen.

Something that can sort of encapsulate that but as a horror story. A story with only victims and the victims o victims

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Horror Story, Suicide 

Ok so I wanna write a short horror story about a ghost and a woman meeting, he commited suicide when she left him and the premise is that you as reader think that she is gonna do the whole tearful regret thing - the ghost does too - but then she just tell him what a selfish twat he was, how he would have met someone better but its too late now and its just all his fault.
The question is how to get THAT as a shock element in.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to be an emperor - that's not my business" is one one of the quotes I want tattooed on me. But its in English, so no... :/
Someone in Anglais-speaking areas take it and do it.

I wanna make an opensource system to handle RPG rules, characters and campaigning.
Some good way to present, show and input the rules in to the system without too much complexity.

Oh god my heart - the kids in my house. Neighbours boy has a crush on a girl in the same house and its adorable.
He asked her what it was like to wear a hijab (well its a Shayla more than a hijab) so she made him one and they are both doing that tween "cool adult talking" to each other while at the same time being adorable and their both wearing Shaylas and this middle aged old faggot that I am is about to cry its too adorable

Today have been a hell of a day so far. Woke up and got this massive wave of anxiety/angst rolling in like I haven't had in years.
Went to bed again, nightmares about the human body being the proof of our horrible future something something.
Then been kinda vegetative and mentally overrun since.

BUT screw that! When brainy no worky, body get cracking! I am going to do laundry, clean the apartment and in book the gym room!

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I asked 9 of my favourite illustrators to write some helpful tips for the Perephoneia blog.

The article includes advice from Edouard Caplain (lead concept artist for Life Is Strange 2) and many others!

Read the full post here: ✍️

12 year old me:
"I hate drawing bodies, stupid anatomy!"
13 year old me:
"I only draw naAked P3ople to learn anatomyY, promise!"

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Microsoft anticompetitive behaviors are back, this time changing HTTPS URLs to microsoft-edge:// URIs to force open the link in Edge.

Brave has already added support for the microsoft-edge:// URI, and Firefox support is coming.

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i downloaded all 10.000 of those ugly lazy lions nfts and turned them into a mosaic of a person right-clicking

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Seriously, the Chrome team just landed a patch that lets sites block "View Source" _right in the middle_ of the Chrome Dev Summit.


The Linus Techtips Linux thing has caused a lot of problems in my little bubble.
On Twitter it has caused some people to lock down their accounts, delete old posts, or simply avoid mentioning the show but go for "that show".
Somehow it feels like when I noticed there was a thing online, with a whole wealth of drama involved, and I realized "yeah not gonna get in to that, just do my own thing in my own corner".

Finally done with All Hallows, we went to a total of four graveyards, and I did my one like I always do every year.

Like every year I sometimes meet others doing the same thing as me (its All Hallows, a lot of people celebrate it). But this year five, New-Agey people hung around the candle sea area and talked about their "energies" and "spirits" which was at first annoying (its a place of mourning, not "trying to childlike play your inner animal") and then just hilariously stupid and fun.

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If you're interested in #Gemini, a (small) hypertext world outside the world wide web, there are a few options out there. The Transjovian Capsules is a project I host that depends 100% on Emacs (you know me) or Lagrange (by @jk). Here's how you would get started:
(These instructions available on the web, of course, since there needs to be a way to cross over…)
I'm still writing the documentation, so if you get stuck, mail me, and we'll fix it, together. 🚀 🚀 🥳

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