thoughts on birthday, getting older
It's gonna be my birthday this thursday (1st of april) and I'm turning 30...
I don't know exactly why I'm somewhat afraid (?) or anxious about turning 30, but I need to express the thoughts somewhere not verbally, but still out there.
I mean, I have a vague idea of why I have that anxiety about that age. When I was a child, I had this idea in my mind that I would have my own house, already gotten married, had kids and a job that I love while I still in my 20s.
thoughts on birthday, getting older
Truth is, I achieved nothing of that. I've got a job that I sometimes like, but not love, more often tolerateable and sometimes even hate.
I'm not married, I don't own a house and I don't have kids.
But why is a perception of my 9 or 10 yo self putting that kind of pressure on me? I know that this kind of vision is obsolete nowadays and society has evolved. But the same society still puts pressure on me and every women-passing person. I hate it.
thoughts on birthday, getting older
Anyway, thanks for coming to my toot-talk 😅
I feel old.