Ghhhh I'm working through the potential and very likely death of my dnd character. They plead guilty to killing a local ruler and their execution will take place in the next game. All the others complicit in the killing either lied or were not present or had their testimony voided, and I am feeling somewhat disappointed in my fellow Chasers. The others will be exiled (for other crimes) and I am quite excited, narratively, to be made an example of, but also I am not fine at all.

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It is day 6 after the declaration of Finian’s execution; I do not know when we will play it out and this has been stressing me way too much. Brain is now working on it by getting a bizarre amount of drawing ideas about Finian’s life to date. Last night sketched one of them out while at a Faust concerto, can’t wait to ink it!

amazingly good news; the date for the game has been set! Good/bad news: it's a week from now. I feel like I absolutely do not have enough time to think.
Is Finian going to die?
Should I push for it to happen?
Should I absolutely not push for it but grab onto life with tooth and nail?
I am kind of interested in what will happen when they die since I've made some reeeeally bad deals with their body and soul. I am also terrified to lose a friend and all their social contacts in the group.

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It's Finian's execution game day! At this point I am almost looking forward to it. A few days ago I got to talk with my GM and I cried and he softened and spoiled me some possible types of outcomes he'd been thinking so I wouldn't worry so much. They're all good even if I die! I've also began making a new character and I'm trying to make them as cool as possible so it would feel more like a new exciting adventure waiting for me beyond death. We'll see.

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@artnaite Have you asked your GM what's going to happen? Might ease your mind if they're willing to work with you so you can either A) plan a memorable death and a good entrance for a new character or B) take the tension off because you know they'll be okay!

@kasshelfant I don’t think he knows! Our gm is the type who likes to make plans for every outcome and is extremely hesitant to rig the game in any way on a meta level. The other players have some mad plans for saving my ass and nobody knows at this point if they will work, or how. Technically I could declare that I really want to die and he would probably help me with it, but as long as I don’t, it is the spirit of the campaign that the exact outcome is a mystery until it happens...

@kasshelfant roused by this toot I at least did go and tell them that whatever happens, if the plan for saving me involves x, I’d really rather let Finian die.

@kasshelfant (he did tell me he has some ”very sacrilegious plans” in case of my death and I am so into that, but nothing more detailed. As it is I am both grasping at straws in order to live and also planning a new character and trying to make them as fun as possible just in case. It can be endured.)

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