roland 🌹 @afictitiousforce@mastodon.art

#introduction
Hello, I'm Roland. I'm a 28yo computer janitor by day, hobbyist #gamedev by night when I have the energy. Bad #DSA member on weekends.

I'm currently working on Lost Generation, a roguelite RPG made in #unity3d about paying off student loans.

I'm also trying to get back into painting, after spending a few years in a rut. Maybe a less beleaguered art community can help pull me out of that.

Here's to starting over, ya'll.

#creativetoots
#mastoart

and once again, fuck landlords

I should probably get a therapist with all this fucking class traitor money

I spend so much of my mental energy explicitly trying not to be who I was. It's gotten me pretty far, to be fair, but maybe it's not enough anymore.

Maybe spending two days immersed in reminders of the most humiliating parts of my mid-20s wasn't such a hot idea

Starlight brigade was super rad

I dunno if i'm capable of "friendly shittalking" anymore. Back when I was able, it was usually a cover for some actual insecurities, though that might apply to everything about me from then.

So im not sure if im projecting but I cant help but assume the same of others. *Especially* other cishet dudes. I just find the whole practice exhausting now.

oh no im attracted to ditto

a late #mikumonday

All i remember is before I shut down I revealed i knew abt masamune shirows greasy post-gits work which is a great first and only impression. Just fantastic

In any case i should probably avoid strong weed when meeting new people. I spent a whole evening trying to keep myself upright and not say anything weird and im not sure if i accomplished either

Haven't had a flare up like this in months. It's almost a relief to know I still remember what it feels like.

Which is kinda fucked up? Is meta-anxiety a thing?

#cutiesaturday

Empress

last-minute #cutiesaturday, among other things

more k-choreo studies

love these assholes and their shitty car

rest in peace, Kazuhiko Kato

just discovered korean choreo youtube

Is there a vampire the masquerade bloodlines mod that makes chinatown less racist

unity's editor GUI APIs are so mindbogglingly bad it makes me so angry