LaureltheRadish @LaureltheRadish@mastodon.art

The farm I applied to got back to me and things are sounding promising!! :D

It sucks BUTTS having severe anxiety, but I finally pushed myself to reach out to a local farm and ask if they're hiring. I just haaaate that 2 of the biggest fears I have (interacting with people and driving) are the most basic components of most employment. Why do I have to be like this?? Ugh ugh ugh

Age: 32
Days since last anxiety dream about missing the school bus: 0

anyway, I did make art (and forgot to post it here as usual) and I'm pretty happy with these! I'm gonna be selling these as a set of stickers at a little local comics fest coming up in a couple weeks, and online later if there are extras.

someone on twitter is using my art as their avatar without asking or providing any credit. I tried to message them to nicely ask them to just credit me but their messages are closed.

this person hasn't tweeted and only has 3 followers so it's not like I'm worried that my art is gonna get around stripped of credit or anything, it's just the principle of it! fucking ask and credit!!

dangerous knowledge: a lot of the target kids clothes come in extended sizes online

I followed someone on instagram who posts nice pictures of vintage toys, but they claim each and every one is a new tag sale or thrift store haul and I am 100% sure they're lying and are actually posting things they've gotten on ebay.

It's irking me to the point that I think I have to unfollow them despite liking their photos.

I'm going home tomorrow because my 19-year-old family cat has to be put to sleep

we got her when I was 13! I thought I was going to be okay because she's been old and sickly for quite a while so I knew it was coming, plus I haven't lived at home in over 10 years (except I guess for a big chunk of 2017). but no, it turns out it's still really upsetting when your buddy who's been in your life since you were 13 has to go!

I'm gonna be okay, I just wish pets didn't have to be sick or die

I'm super frustrated because I don't even feel bad except that I have frequent, intense coughing fits that strike at random

I WANT to be outside working on farm shit (and there is SO MUCH to do) but instead I'm bored and inside because the coughing is keeping me from doing anything

oh yeah, yesterday I heard rustling under some plants and wanted to see what it was so I got closer and a MOLE came out

it saw me and froze in fear, so I did the only logical thing, which was to reach down and pet it ever so gently with one finger

the mole peed

in fear

I am a monster

(it was very soft)

Anyway, ecology is science, permaculture is not. I do think permaculture has a lot of good ideas and is way better than conventional agriculture, but don't leave behind critical thinking. For instance, there is absolutely no science behind the popular idea of dynamic accumulator plants. And many of the commonly recommended plants could be replaced with native species for some actual, valuable biodiversity! Please oh please do what you can to support the insects

I'm currently reading a book where the guy spent 2 pages on a hippie bullshit diatribe against native plant proponents because "native" is hard to define, and therefore... doesn't mean anything, and we shouldn't try to fight invasive species something something plant synergy?? Plant apples and tomatoes and lettuce all you like, just please also plant native species alongside and for the love of god don't plant invasives bc they're ~medicinal~ or whatever

so done with smug permaculture dudes patting themselves on the backs for adding "so much biodiversity" to the ecosystem when the things they plant are comfrey, red/white clover, hardy kiwi, autumn olive, and tons more non-native (sometimes highly invasive!) plants. Insects evolved alongside specific plants and very often cannot just choose to eat another kind! We're in the midst of an insect population crisis jfc