Jigme Datse Yli-Rasku @JigmeDatse@mastodon.art

I wasn't sleeping, took extra pain/sleep meds (also helps with anxiety) and hung out online for a bit (bugger need to fix that certificate), but it's time to try some more sleep.

I'm not deleting yet, because deleting would prevent people from connecting if their only contact with me is through this instance. But I think with a number of different things with Mastodon, I am feeling that I will be leaving this instance, and possibly Mastodon entirely. There is open hostility towards the core team, there is welcoming of a variety of dangerous extreme views, and maybe I'll just hang out where I feel safe. And don't expect anyone to ask "where is that?"

But: Multiple people reported that I was "enabling suicide".

This is exactly the kind of thing that *does* encourage suicide, and suicidal thinking. Shutting down discussion about suicide means people feel unsafe.

Going behind people's backs. That makes people feel unsafe.

I am feeling very unsafe, and I doubt that will be fixed unless "multiple people" come and apologize to me and the others publicly.

There were a couple of people I was talking to yesterday, one who posted her (I think) view of a case where a person had recently commited suicide, and said that she'd said very important things, but may be criticized for saying so.

And another person who commonly has issues that she doesn't wish to continue living a life which is not worth living, and I said that I supported her to make the decision that was right for me.

OK, this Nature of Things video has more than 20 minutes left on it... So I think I will go to bed. I'm afraid I may find out how triggered I have brought myself tonight when I try to sleep. I have ways of dealing with that...

I should probably head to bed. Night Night... But I want to finish listening to stuff...

And thanks to @ChrisTalleras I know that it's the Mastodon alert signal...

The ravens were making the same sound as one of my notification sounds. This wasn't nice... I go out to get away from the inside sounds...

I just realized why the internet is so quiet. It's telling me I need to go to bed. Night night everyone...

Here is the current statement as put out by Gentoo:

https://www.gentoo.org/news/2018/06/28/Github-gentoo-org-hacked.html

I don't really know what the timeline for them getting this fixed is likely to be, but for now I'm not updating any of my Gentoo machines...

Well... Apparently the Gentoo github account got compromised, and malicious code was installed there. It looks like this could be affecting all gentoo users who happened to hit after the code was introduced, and before any mitigating action was taken.

Apparently the code as it exists, should not work to accomplish what it aims to, because, um, because it's not possible to have that effect? I don't know. Still, it's pretty shocking...

I think I am off to bed. I have some strange news, and it feels so strange as to be a bit upsetting to me (not quite sure why), but I think I was actually productive today. I mean, it's not that I don't *want* to be productive, it's just that it hasn't happened on at all a regular basis, and that when it happens and I notice it, it is just weird. And it's upsetting because I really feel that I should be able to do it more often. OK, off to bed. Let's see how it goes...

Hey, I have been using NextCloud, for large part for local stuff (well entirely for local stuff as the instance isn't accessible outside of the network). And because @welshpixie shared a PDF on Patreon that it wasn't accepting, I took a stab at fixing the "we don't handle big files" thing that I've had with that, and, well I have it fixed, I needed to add some configuration to nginx on my system, and that is now working.

Well, let's give that sleep thing a go...

I find it a bit odd, I like reading this format from time to time, because it just works for me. I feel like a read a "book" when I read something like this. But, but there aren't really a lot of words.

I really like how this one separates the words from the graphical content, because when they are together, I fail to attend to both. But this way, I can switch from looking at the pictures, to reading the words, and not wonder if I missed some "flow" with doing that.

I seem to be hitting the "eyes will be closing by themself shortly" stage of my day, so off to bed.

Oh, I "read" a book. *Secret Path* by Gord Downie and Jeff Lemire.

Very sad, but I kind of have a thing for Jeff Lemire's work. Not sure why...

http://jefflemire.blogspot.com/

I think it is time to head to bed. Feel like if I don't head there soon, I'm going to hit a "bad point"... So, I guess I should do that... Night Night...

About a week ago, I was working on some video editing in kdenlive, and it crashed on me, ever since then I have been trying to find a way to fix that, and I think in the process I ended up breaking a lot of different things. I'm hoping that tonight, or maybe tomorrow, I can be back to where I was before I started to try to fix things.

I could well be "insane". but I guess maybe the fact I'm running Gentoo could be the answer to that...

I feel done for today. But I don't think I did anything. I woke up sore, but not as sore as yesterday. And the digestive distress is much more livable. It's only a little worse than "ideal" and well within our normal. Maybe tomorrow will be better again. I don't know.

I just updated my PeerTube instance https://video.datsemultimedia.com/ I still need to come a bit better with what kind of moderation policy we will have. Right now I don't want to "ban" content, but I do want content to have appropriate "content protection". Ie. if it's "not safe" be tagged "NSFW" without too much regard to what that might mean.

We don't have the same types of ways of handling it in PeerTube as Mastodon, so I'm not quite sure how best to handle that.

But feel free to join.