I'm not even kidding! Look at my stress levels compared from the last few days to me listening to the lo-fi today!
When I listen to Parisian café music, I bake. Apparently when I listen to lofi, I fix my life. Maybe I should listen to it constantly. XD
...this hit me pretty hard and if I hadn't already been crying all day, I think that might have started me up again.
It was brought on by a completely unrelated topic. And I just...
I needed that.
The neatest thing I thought was the supposedly demon-possesed Thai puppet from 1865.
My friend said it was genuinely creepy. But I said "all old dolls are creepy, demons or no." LOL
There was a basket full of bibles you're supposed to carry with you while looking at the demon-possesed objects, that I didn't see until I was done. XD oops.
(essentially, what I'm saying is that I'm retreating and isolating because I feel lonely. Which...is the exact opposite of what I should be doing. But putting in effort when it feels like no one wants me around is very mentally draining.)
I honestly wish it to be more on the platforms that I prefer and feel safer on.
I'm getting tired of being the only one who reaches out. I only have a small few people who actively try to talk to me. But I don't know how to improve on any of this.
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